
I DID IT IN THE DARK
GEMINI CARRINGTON
I was tired of being the fat friend.
Tired of hiding in pictures.
Tired of pretending I was “confident enough.”
Tired of being the funny one, the supportive one, the accomplished one—while secretly hating what I saw in the mirror.
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United States
Description:
I was tired of being the fat friend. Tired of hiding in pictures. Tired of pretending I was “confident enough.” Tired of being the funny one, the supportive one, the accomplished one—while secretly hating what I saw in the mirror. People saw the degrees. The leadership title. The polished clothes. The school principal. What they didn’t see was the binge eating. The bulimia. The food obsession. The shame. The exhaustion of fighting a body that never seemed to work the way everyone else’s did. So I did what many women do. I hid it. I lost 145 pounds in private. From 315 pounds to 170, I went through two bariatric surgeries, appetite suppressants, Ozempic, therapy, insulin resistance, depression, and a mental health battle that nearly destroyed me—all while showing up to work smiling like everything was fine. Nobody knew. I Did It in the Dark is the uncensored truth about weight loss when the issue isn’t laziness or willpower. It’s biology. Trauma. Hormones. Shame. Survival. No filter. No fake inspiration. No “just love yourself” speeches. Inside this memoir, I tell the parts people usually hide: This is not a diet book. This is what happens behind the glow-up. If you’ve ever: This book is for you. The weight loss changed my body. The truth changed my life. Duration - 4h 22m. Author - GEMINI CARRINGTON. Narrator - Digital Voice. Published Date - Thursday, 01 January 2026.
Language:
English
Opening Credits
Duration:00:00:11
A Note Before We Begin
Duration:00:06:55
Introduction
Duration:00:00:16
Prologue: HELL NAW, NOT YOU!
Duration:00:05:47
CHAPTER 1: The Girl in the Before
Duration:00:16:41
CHAPTER 2: The Fat Friend
Duration:00:18:12
CHAPTER 3: The Armor
Duration:00:15:21
CHAPTER 4: Declan
Duration:00:23:06
CHAPTER 5: New York, New Body, Same Secret
Duration:00:28:09
CHAPTER 6: The Table
Duration:00:28:33
CHAPTER 7: The Slow Becoming
Duration:00:23:55
CHAPTER 8: One Hundred and Forty-Five Pounds
Duration:00:36:42
CHAPTER 9: What's Your Secret?
Duration:00:21:05
CHAPTER 10: Did I Waste My Best Years Being Fat?
Duration:00:20:18
CHAPTER 11: I Was Always Her
Duration:00:17:06
Ending Credits
Duration:00:00:41